What I have observed that while the society says gay men are gay men but lesbians, no, you’re freaky, you like to be a with a female because you’re freaky or you’re going through a phase or you’re not a lesbian, you’re bisexual, you really want to have sex with both. I’ve been told on so many occasions, you just need to find a good man to give you a good time. Once you get that man to give you a good time in bed, then you change your mind about being attracted to females. For me, heterosexual relationship was twinned with a feeling that I was just raped and violated. I remember a number of occasions after it happened. I would try to shower off the scent, the feel, the sensation of a man off me and just can’t get it off. So as I got older, I got more depressed because I was living a lie and I didn’t know how to deal with it. I didn’t. There’s no outlet in Jamaica to share it. You’re afraid, even if you want to, you’re so afraid you don’t know who to trust.